I HAVE MOVED

I am so Excited to announce that I have moved over to a new website for my Blog, Recipes and Workouts! If you have enjoyed My post please Head over to www.fullofgrit.me and follow me on my new site.

Thank you so much for taking the time to read my post. I look forward to sharing with you and helping you in a new, cleaner and more user-friendly format!

-Emily

Screen Shot 2015-12-22 at 4.04.03 PM

My Dear Girls, My Hope for You…

My Hope For My Girls

My Girls
I hope you will always leap,dance, take risk and reach for the best part of yourself.

I hope you will find your way with kindness and faith. That you will unleash your joy and be true to yourself.

I hope you will celebrate the abundance in your life and embrace your vulnerability as a foundation for growth.

I hope you will collect moments of kindness, ask for what you need, speak of gratitude, offer forgiveness and believe in healing.

I hope you will embrace change and honor your intuition.

I hope you will stand with integrity and be proud to tell your story.

Emily Woolf

I Want to Know the Real Unfiltered You

IMG_2581Challenged by small talk, a barrier to depth, a diversion from what is real.
I want to hear your truth, don’t sugar coat it. No matter how blunt or raw, I want to hear your thoughts.
I want to know the real unfiltered you, so that I can appreciated you for all that you really are. I am not interested in what you think you should be, I have a hunch that you are so much more.

Emily Woolf

The Aftermath

I can’t even look at you.There is nothing left of the man I once knew.

I held on so long, it was illogical. Fingertips clinging to the cracks in our foundation.

Not willing to let go unable to fail. I made a promise for better or for worse.

But that promise was my burden to bare, not hers. I knew I had to protect her.

It never occurred to me, they would make her go back alone. Without me there to stand between and keep her safe.

I feel the ache of sorrow tightening in my throat. I pray she will never understand why I left. That you only ever show her the good.

Tonight, as I walk away with my healthy beautiful girl, safe in my arms I will count my blessings.

Home, again busy with the sound of easy laughter, a sanctuary of love and trust.

Vulnerability is Not a Weakness

IMG_9403

Vulnerability a weakness I simply can not risk. I consider myself to be a strong woman, I make no time for self-pity.

So long I spent with painful secrets, refusing to be defined by what had happened. I worked so hard to file each struggle away, tightly sealed and stuffed away in the dark and dusty space of my mind.

So many potentially crushing moments, never fully faced or erased but quickly packed away, to be forgotten and overcome.
My strength derived from self reliance and the relentless persute of the silver lining and a will to move on.

Now in a new and far more secure place in life, this strength,is becoming a detriment. No longer necessary, I find my self tripping over it as it changes form from a survival necessity to a impediment of stubbornness.

It is so incredibly difficult, for me to ask for even the smallest bit of help.
Though I would give my all to help and support those around me.

Perhaps it takes more maturity, to realize vulnerability is not a weakness
but an opportunity in life, to enhance and enrich the relationships of life and truly embrace them as a gift.

Emily Woolf

A Mothers Worry

I carry so much guilt and worry.
How will my decisions impact and affect you? It was never a part of the plan, the conflict you face with a split family.
I pray I will make the right choices, keeping you safe while affording you the right to love, untainted, whom ever you chose to love. I seek to always keep your needs at the center of every choice and potential battle.
I am so greatful to be your Mother, I just hope I do it right.

IMG_9401

So many new and big changes.

IMG_2515I know I have been MIA most of the summer. Life was full big evens and big changes.

We closed on our first house as a family. And with owning a home comes all the fun… and labor intensive elements of making it our own. We have been busy painting the shutters and replacing the exterior light fixtures. Kev fixed the sprinkler system (that reportedly hadn’t worked in over 8 years). I love having a handy and skilled husband! We have also been busy updating the interior, from painting the kitchen cupboards, replacing faucets and updating windows.

imageIMG_2581 image image before and afters

We also took on the HUGE task of remodeling the girls room to include built in bunk beds my husband designed and made himself. We made the curtains and nightshades and decorated ourselves to save cash, since we ended up replacing their carpet (not originally in the budget or the plan…. long story).

IMG_0058 IMG_0061 IMG_0062 IMG_0063 IMG_0064 IMG_0065 IMG_0067 IMG_0068

We love our house more and more with each day!

IMG_3578IMG_3459

We also got a new Puppy! She is an amazing companion to the girls and incredibly patient. No really, she will let Ava wash her teeth with a baby wipe while Lilly lays her head against her to read a book. So for all her patience, I will forgive her for puking in the brand new minivan and peeing in our hallway every day right next to the potty training seat…sigh.

She also has a strange passion for making piles of cicada at the back door every night before bed. Let me tell ya, one Cicada is gross, a pile of them freaks me out. But boy has our back yard been much quieter. * If you are not from the northern VA area…. Cicada are a disgustingly large and LOUD bug I never knew existed until I moved here.

IMG_3622 IMG_3889 IMG_3891 IMG_3926

I am also making a HUGE Career track change… the decision was officially made last week. I will fill you in soon.